The pictures tell a thousand meanings.........People always said that you have to look what you have now...not whatyou do not have...sometime things that you lost you will know how preciousit is...you will not take it for granted...I know i'm weak...Me and God know my weaknesses...Raya nk kat dekat...teros terang aku tk rase hangat hari raya...aku tauaku got to meet my sedare to catch up wit them...utk merapat kan silaturahim...i think when you grow the way y0u think will be changing...I just miss all my friends......You all have contribute to my life in one wayor another...Friends include those who have in a way change my life in a smallest form or biggest form...thankiuuu everything....i know that God will replace with better ones....Amiin...Anyone....i feel like pouring my heart out...hug anyone so that i knowthat i'm not alone here....Di sini ingin aku mintak maaf sekirannya pernah aku melukakan hati korang....Aku ingin mintak maaf kepada seseorang yg pernah ku kongsisebahagian hidup ku bersama nye...Mintak maaf ku pohon kerna ku, engkauharus melalui penderitaan pada waktu dulu...Aku harap engkau akan bahagia dgn sesiapa yg engkau rase sesuai...Aku ingin meletak kan diri kuserendah rendah nye dihadapan korang....Aku ini juga manusia...tidak lepasdari kesilapan...sekirannya aku tinggal kan korang buat selame lamenyeaku ingin ckp i love my family eventhough aku tidak sangat tunjok kankasih sayang ku pada mereka...i loves all my friends...i love my sedare2...I love my guru2 yg memberi ku ilmu.... 
8 days left before Ramadhan say to us good bye...
You know time will never wait for you....but ever you think....
Why do we always do not have time.....??
I think everyone will be saying why the time is soo short....
When you think back....In this world you will be always facing
problemssss....After one problem has been resolve then another
prob pops up....but the worse scenario is when one prob have
not resolve the other prob pop up from no where....sometimes
it always happen...n if you see it back that prob that is popping
up is from your previous doing...ethier you neglect it or you
just finding the simplest solution which is on solution for short
term...
I always facing probs in life n i have always 2 options.....
1st option is to ignore it...
2nd option to solve the prob...
A lot of my past that i regret not doing n i believe if i had not
ignored it i will become a better person....Take things seriously...
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I read this book called 7 metaphors on management, tools for managers
in arabic world....
One Methaphors that the author is saying is "Candle"
What will you be think bout candle....yes, giving light....am i right to
say that....that light is for yourself to depend on and for your surrounding..
Now i will impose a question to all of you who read my blog...
Do you have a candle.....?? If yes how bright is your candle....?? If bright
then do your surrounding get the light from you...??
Before i proceed...in order for you to light a candle you need to light
up on your own first....You need a spark....You need a candle....That is
a challenge....
As Sajdah (Ayat 7) :
Yang membuat segala sesuatu yang Dia ciptakan
sebaik-baiknya dan Yang memulai penciptaan manusia dari Tanah.
Kemudian Dia menjadikan keturunannya dari saripati air yang hina
(air mani).
Kemudian Dia menyempurnakan dan meniupkan ke dalam (tubuh)nya
roh (ciptaan)-Nya dan Dia menjadikan bagi kamu pendengaran,
penglihatan dan hati; (tetapi) kamu sedikit sekali bersyukur.
Went home from school then met Hasanul Arifin....Yes the NUS guy....
Which maybe some the gals crush with him...hahaha....
Anw kite ckp2 then this topic really break our ice....then all the way
dari bus then jalan kaki bebual....n the shocking part is that we never
talk bout our MS es...haaha...that is new...this is call forging new friend..
eh tol tk aku spell forge...??
We thought that we are suffering alone but if you think back...you not
alone...some of them have more challenges...
You know its really great to be single back...hahaha...evil smile....coz you can
choose more out there...hahaha....evil evil smile....now i am free...i mean
not free in free...but free to think what i want...erm aku salah phrase it...
Nvrm....ignore bout it....
Husni dah gi NS tadi...tk salah aku tekong....cey dah NS sey..... 17 days of
Ramadhan had past....woooooo...cpt tuuu....
I suddenly want to learn history....i want to know how a nation rise and a
kingdom falls and many more...Dah lame tk maen bole sepak....Yess dah
lame tk maen table tenis ngan hus, taufik, lal....and tk lupe tenis....
hahaha....maseh igt agi tuu....zamy pon join dulu....waaah enjoy sey....
As per normal ramadhan will have many Iftars among Tertiaries and Uni...
Tommorow will be SIM
Went to NUS iftar just now.....MasyaAllah....
What a great plan they have.....
Dpt result tadi....aiyoooo...mcm ane nk gi ntu....????
Later will get my result....i will not put high expectation....
I was werking just now n my friend n my manager said to me...
In a joking form...but i do not know y i take it seriously....
My friend said....wan kau ni suke carik kemarahan orang....then
manager support...tol laa kau ni wan...erm...what i had done...???
You know....it knock my head...i'm not sure how hard...suddenly
i reflect my whole life...do you think i always carik kemarahan
orang...?? You know people who want to advice me with more
effective should talk to me nicely...because it really make my
head knock real hard....
Exactly one month had happen...i cannot do anything to stop it...
I realise that sometimes what you love or like you cannot guarantee
will be yours...this is life....For sure i know that i am still
Muhammad Riduwan Bin Selamat...life have to go on...Only God
knows....
For sure i'm going to keep myself busy....
When i think....I like wanting to see the world...how God has made
this world sooo sooo sooo perfect n beautiful...I just want to feel
how small am i....MasyaAllah....
Yup 6 months to NPMSS agm...and yes 6 months of graduation...
InsyaAllah...n again...will i be alive when i graduate....??
Now is my turn to blog....
Last friday, sat n sun was ramadhan rocks....really make full use of the
logistics...hahaha...
Anw on the last day of ramadhan rocks ade tazkirah subuh...Ustaz Ali tk
salah aku die ckp bout orang ahli surga...Rasullah SAW ckp ngan sahabat2
nanti akan ade orang dtg ini dari kalangan orang2 ahli surga....then ade sahabat
ni which aku tk tau name die...So sahabat yg laen ni pon hairan la nape die
masok surga....jadi salah satu sahabat ni nk tau ape die buat sampai kan
die masok surga...die mintak izin utk tinggal kat umah die selama 3 hari....
pendek kan cerita....sahabat ni pon hairan sebab die tk buat pape yg luar
biase yg bole masok kan die dlm surga...die pergi lah tny orang ahli surga ni...
Ape yg kau buat sampai kau bole masok surga...?? (pendek kan cerita)
Aku pon tidak tahu...tapi ape yg aku tau sebelom aku tido aku akan maaf kan
semua dosa2 yg pernah orang buat kat aku....
* Ustaz ni ckp ngan aku type kat blog ade laen siket tapi content die same...
So yaaa....conclusion die is hati......aku ingin meminta maaf kepada semua orang....
InsyaAllah.....coz aku pon akan tinggal kan dunia ini....entah aku dpt masok umor
21 ke tk....anw aku dah umor 20 tahun....!!! Alhamdullilaaah
Mak aku ckp....ale2 die ckp....wan kau anggap la dulu sebagai dugaan n bukak
lah lembaran baru die umor 20 tahun ni....(rephase using my own words)
I know, she can feel the pain what i feel right now....she is my mum after all....
My dad can feel....gaknye laaah...tapi itu pon gaknye tk nk bilang.....hahaha....
Looking at the brighter sight....i try to forgive n forget my past....lets start fresh...
Eh mcm rhyme gitu eh??? hahaha
Anw aku dah ade satu cita2 for now....aku nk jadi engineer....aku tny la kawan aku
ni dulu....nape die nk jadi ni....?? then die tny aku alek....then die jawab what a
typical anwser...hahah...coz aku nk jadi engineer which my course is electrical
ENGINEER......Its 60% goin to be engineer....
Yup birthday yesterday as per normal as previous years birthday except last year...
I do not celebrate my birthday with anyone...:-) should it be sad or happy....
In my life only 2 times there is a celebration for my birthday....when i was
at the age or entah la tapi maseh kecik n also last year...yes 2 years of 20 year....
I really envy people who have close friends...share secrets together...laugh together...
sad together...really...i only felt it once in my life....when my age is 18 and 19 yrs
old....that is my highest part of my life...now i'm 20 years old.....1 day had past...
My life now is just to go to sch every mon to fri....sat sun klau tk de camp ade keje.....
Thats my life for now...Yes tmr ade leadership camp organise by saff perdaus
inconjuction with TMSN....looking forward to it....got to meet more friends....
Aku realise aku dah tk pandai uat puise jiwaaang.....hahaha....aku dah mcm ckp
more to english then to malay.....eng aku dah karat....malay aku dah makin down...
so what language shall i use....not singlish but maleng...combination of eng and malay...
Aku nk pick up alek mandarin...so i'm taking up mandarin course in NP...hope to
speak fluent...and ade agi satu language which i really want to understand....which
is bahase Syurga....mcm ane nk masok syurga klau bahase pon tk tau.....hahaha....
ok la not sampai di sini jeee....aku mcm lapar arr....hahaha....
Bila rindu ku sebut nama muuuu.....
Bila resah gelisa terasaaaaa......
Pheeeewww.......!! What a long long daaaay.....finally dpt la update blog ku
ini......
Act aru jugak abes keje....wooow today i think i non stop standing....
9am-4.30pm WSS training then kol 6pm je keje sampai kol 11pm
act...
Yes tmr still need to go for training....nk kene dtg siang siket.....
Semalam kwn aku tny kat msn...takraw sekolah selection nk kat dekat
n die suro aku dtg training.....aku ckp ngan die...aku dah tk maen takraw
agi ar....hehe....woooow that is unbelivable i can said that...yes....slowly
scraping off what will not benefit me now....
Cpt nye mase berlalu....kejam kelip kejam kelip....dah puase yee...
Haaaaiz.....nape aku mengeluh ni.....?? errrmmm....nk ckp nanti aku
start la emo aku....klau tk ckp lak nanti aku simpan sendiri.....
You know....i really reflected what i had done....you know...mcm kelakar
tau...Bile aku dpt perlahan lahan lupe kan die then ade sekeliling aku
bagi aku semangat utk tidak lupe kan die...Bile aku kenang balek....die
btol2 paham kedudukan aku bile waktu itu....she did loves me very
much...she did sacrifice for me alot....ermmm....Aku maseh igt agi pandangan
pertama ku ngan die....i know she will be the right one for me....
Dulu aku ckp ngan diri aku....aku nk pompan yg lawaaaaaa.....sporting....
pandai....independent...tau agama.....tau jge diri....dulu aku kenal jugak
beberapa pompan tapi not go into relationship....aku ni pon cerewet jugak...
Tak padan gemok aku ni...haha....i know all this criteria she have....its
like dream come true....you know what...she is strong at heart....salute you...
she make me realise that i never see before....she make me matured faster...
At one stage....aku terfikir....after break....she gives me support tapi aku
tk bagi die support....ermm....you know a man ketua keluarge yg harus support
kan...am i right....how do he support....by many diff ways...i think back
if only i can rewind all back.....how nice.... :-) :-) :-) What i know i really lacking
of is that....bile aku tk suke atau any issues aku simpan sendiri....nape eh..??
Dari dulu ar....tapi aku pikir2 balek...you need to tell..klau tidak orang
tk tau n die akan buat bende yg tk suke....
I still feels that she is beside me even though she said its a break....you know
i can just feel her by my side...aku pon tk tau nape...mcm ade something
still attach...tk tau lak die....mungkin aku perasan sendiri...
To tell the truth my whole life of 20 years she has impact my life....no other
gal had done that.....untill now...cume mak aku laaaaaaa....
she make my world go round n round....
Moving on......
Aku patot tido sekarang....anw klau aku rajin aku akan upload WSS training k...
Sampai di sini....
Its just nice to know that someone loves you.... haaaaaaiiizzzz.....
This is my life now.....let me introduce to you my closest companion...."TOOLBOX" Lepas tu kan ade tangan....tgk tu tangan die 90 degree...then ade mate siket...nampak tk??? Ini spiderweb...colour hijau agi...fuyooooooo.... Ini la die tempat spider tu tinggal....lawa kan....Lawa tu lawa tapi tk funtional pon.... Tadi aku ternampak lecturer aku daaaah....die pakai seluar pendek....tk pernah sey aku nmpak die pakai selauar pendek....aku rase die ngah beli bende kat umah die... Lps tu aku senyum jeee tk stop2.... Can blog be addictive....?? Maybe if you know that i can pour my probs my views out... K la... Aku menunggu seseorang yg istimewa yg dpt menawar luke di hati....sape kah die ituuu....?? cheng cheng cheng....!! Lom ade agi....hahahah..... Ni dugaan wan....dugaan di bulan puase dan hikmah di sebalek nye....
Mcm2 ade dlm...bukan nye sume aku pakai...tapi aku letak je in case due to emergency...
Gmbar ni terbalak...klau korang nk tgk nk kene senget kan kepale la yeee...Ini proj
aku start on friday then abes setengah jalan....niari kene demolish kan sume.....programming
aku tk sempat buat...punye la seloooow....act to complete whole proj is 6.5 hrs n i took
11.5hrs excluding programming....aku tk tau nk ckp ape kat diri aku....nk ckp congraz
ke nk ckp weldone ke atau nk ckp good job....
Inilah die bende yg aku uat...die ade mata tau...berwarne warni....
Niari start puase....Syaitan dah tkde....Aku berdepan dgn nafsu ku sahaja....
You know after taraweh yester....i cried...do not know y...now i'm sitting right in front
of nizam...Yes....he is my Life Idol....He is now studying for his test latter....
Yes he is resilient....Sakenah which is mateair die kat Australia for 4 years....
Can you imagine...He think positive...He is really a strong guy...
At one stage of my life i told to myself that i am a strong guy....positive thinker...
Can handle preasure...After going through onak dan duri kehidupan
aku sedar bahawa aku ini lemah....Now to tell the trust this is the lowest stage
of my life....I use to hold this falsafah....Aku akan berikan cinta ku pada
seseorang yg sanggup menerimanya....
I tell to myself....Wan go through NS first...Be a man...You are still a boy
which still do not know the meaning of life...Let me suffer now so i will be
more experience in my life....Yes i am now...
I hate to tell you this...but i cried coz of her...You know it is a fiece battle
between Love VS Reality...Who will win...?? I shall not follow the flow...I shall
make the reality win...N reality is the most hardest part in life...Do you think...??
But y...??
Don't let my emotions running wild now...just take this is hikmah...dugaan dari
Allah pada hamba nya yg hina...
May God bless us with Knowledge, Iman and Amal.....Amiiiin.....
