Trying to delete my old files from my laptop....Browsing through all the memories
that past...But i deleted it coz like i said now i'm strong enough to face the new
world...being independent...wasting some part of my life because of her....
I really hope that i can be friend with her...InsyaAllah one day when she invite
to her wedding and by then insyaAllah i have a girl which i will going to marry with...
Its really hard to let go sometimes...
My life in the poly will end soon...and i really feel sad...but this is life...you have
to go on...look at your future...after poly then NS..i want to go Uni...i can go Uni...
I just realise that i make a great impact in Ngee Ann Sepak takraw team...I
really do appreciate the support that they give me...till now they still believe that
i can contribute to sepak takraw...
I still remember the time when i just started playing sepak takraw...You know
i really have to werk hard...really hard in order to play sepak takraw...i was fat
i mean very fat in those days...Juggling takraw balls 7 times a week...My life is
takraw...Takraw is my life...It thought me what is the meaning to control yourself..
I still remember my mum thought that i cannot do well in PSLE coz i was sick...
But i made it...slowly i build up from there...My form teacher and my classmates
criticise my leadership skills when i was sec 1...what a sad moment of my life...
Then slowly i build my confidence...i had this crush with this gal during my sec 5
but i was rejected...Nvrm after suffering for 6 month cannot study for my O'Level
then i wake up..i werk hard..Alhamdullilah i did well for my Os...And i know my
parent feel proud of me...
Going to poly...i had a few crush during my poly life...finding my "ideal" gal...Its
hard...but 1 fine day i thought i had find the perfect one...we were togther around
1 year plus....then i re think back bout my "ideal" gal back....and i really feel that i'm
tired to really find and chase...but just look around and maybe will straight marry
with the one i love....
Lots of things that i've learnt during my poly life...it is fun though...i really enjoy it..
The challenges that i've faced...
Now i just going to re think and re learn new stuff...
May i have a power nap...??? I need a power nap....
Just now i played rubber band with my family...tried to aim at a match box....And
my mum hit it first...and she really felt really happy...and i'm the 2nd one to hit
the box...Now i know that my mum has high concentration power..
If you really read my blog until this last sentence means that you care for me...
You are my friends...My friends that i can rely on...Thank you for everything....
May God bless you....
I always this habit when i in front of my laptop and try to update
my blog then all dissapear from my brain...but when i not in front
of my laptop then a lot of ideas pouring out from my brain....that is
really funny sey...
Yes aku aru igt...maybe i will pick up sepak takraw back...waaaaah
3 month of not playing sepak takraw then i feel like OMG...no word
can describe it....that day i watched my ngee ann friends had a tournament
and when they warm up they juggle the ball...i try to ignore the temptation.
You guess what i really cannot resist of not touching the ball...waaaaah
when i juggle the ball i can feel that, that is part of me that is lost....
I think i just make sepak takraw as my free pastime sports...
But now i try to be a part of ngee ann sepak takraw team back coz
i think that we can win medal this time round during NUS open which
will be held around feb..so there is time for me to train.... :-)
As days past i realise that i have a few major weaknesses in myself
that i need to improve on.
1) Communication in English
2) Discipline in time management
And i still cannot figure what is my true strength. I still not sure coz
from what i know there is no obvious strengh in me that i know of
right now. Need to find it.
Semalam keje niari keje....mcm dah ade anak isteri gitu aku ni...hehe
Maklum la nk kahwin kan...hahah...actually just to do something with
that money...investment for the future...I cannot see if we can become rich
with money...I can only see that i can become rich with knowledge...So
basicly that money i will invest in getting knowledge...
Aku kadang2 dpt tips kadang $2 kadang bape sen je...then i feel happy...
tapi aku pikir balek nape aku happy eh?? dpt $0.20 tips....this small amount
if i collect it every day will not make me rich becuase what i spent is much
higher....
I read my friends blog and there is a quote that it really stay in my mind....
Have you give your very best every day....I think not me...i have not reach
to that discipline of doing it to the best of my ability...but i know i need to
improve on that...
Time always fly fast...and i realise that i sleep a lot everyday...8 hrs...i thought
that is the standard sleeping hours that an adult need to sleep..but if i think
back most i think all the scholars they spend their night gaining knowledge...
For me sleep...haha...its 2am already...what i do...blog...haha...
My plan after school is to continue my pizza job and i think i want to take
up relief teacher in my secondary school as malay teacher...as you can see
i know frequently speak in english...that is the reason i should go and teach
malay so to sharpen my malay again...yaaaaay...that is just what i plan...
If in someones perspective when seeing my life i think he or she may feels that
my life is boring...but im happy with what i do now...weekdays i got school
n sometimes meeting and if i were to finish early just hang out at mss or
just go home n do nothing...at weekends work...yaaa that is my life for the
moment...a gerl really likes me need to know my life and my background...
Do not want to hurt my feeling and her feeling...
I have this feeling that i want to change the world....at least change singapore
or at least change the community for the better...so what should i do to become
the leader...?? Discipline...a muslim leader...and i...wahahaha...not to that standard
of becoming an ideal leader...
When i think back this is the first step for me to become a leader..this is the best
training ground..i want to contribute to the community that really needs me...
May Allah bless me...i know Allah give me all the tools to become the Khalifah...
Wooooow that is a huge and heavy word...suddenly i feel that it is still very very
far for me to become the Khalifah...too many sins that i have..
K la i think i better sleep and prepare for tommorrow..
I think i should just wait and see....
Ni gambar WSS aku yg ade orang bagi aku....Aku yg no 5...still remember the stress
during the competition....
Actually kan klau korang tgk gambar kat bawah aku pakai tangga yg lebeh pendek...N aku nk cpt la turon bawah so aku lompat n ade sakali ni aku lompat n aku nk kat terjatoh....Hahaha malu sey tapi aku ignore je...lagi starting2 kasi bad impression sey..... 
Each day my love to become an engineer grew...I start to realise that you need to plan way ahead...Need tp plan early to have a great life ahead...included that i live... Nowadays i think a lot...not about studies or what so ever but about my life....Its hard to jage hati orang...Jage hati setiap orang...I think the best way is to do whatis best...Today i thought of studying tapi nmapak nye tk laa....aiyoooo....nvrm tmrmaybe.... Do money can buy all the thing....?? Just missing my sepak takraw....Lame tk maen takraw....
Sape yg ikot aku teman tegok wayang ke.....?? Maen bowling ke.....table tennis ke........
Maen bola ke....?? Like no time for all those....
Life have change for me...no more the old riduwan...this is brand new riduwan....
A better Riduwan insyaAllah...
Anw Barrack Obama WON.....!!! How happy am i.....May God help him n give him
strength in pushing America and the world for the betterment....
Tekak aku mcm nk saket gitu..tu la malam2 mkn ice cream agi...dah makan mee then
sambung makan choc ice cream...Letak ice cream kat roti tebal2 dah tu letak kat
cawan agi...hahaha....sekarang perot aku bunyi tapi nk kene ignore klau tk makin
gemok la nanti aku....
Tadi ade EID presentation n you know what aku bual confidently n naseb baek cikgu
tk tny aku soalan...Naseb baek aku bual confident step aku tau la padehal tk tau sgt...
Aku elaborate pon kat layout n not max. demand for calculation.....hehehe...
Alamak next 2 weeks i got Mandarin test....Ni hao ma..?? Wo bu cuo..ni ne..??
Arar eh aku rase aku patot talk siket cine kat blog aku jadi aku bole improve
chinese aku eh...errm....tapi gaknye every entry aku will take at least 30 mins to
write sebab nk pikir punye la lmbat....k laaa....
" May God bless you, may God bless the United State of America. Thank you, Thank you...!!!"
Speeched by Barrack Obama....
Who said that i'm going to give up on what i believe in...??
Thinking back when i was 1st yr...how much i have grow...
I think ngee ann poly had change me becoming into a better
person...
You know i made a lot of mistakes especially in my poly life...
A lot of them...but that is good because i can learn from it...
When i think a lot about my probs i sometimes think....when
i will die...?? :-/ You know i have to die...we all have to die...
Please forgive my sins....especially to her...just now there is
BAS so i was at the class without realising that she was there...
I was a bit late coz due to cetain reasons..I do not know she
was there when i look tu mcm aku pernah nampak....then cheng
cheng cheng..die daaah...1st impression is to ignore because
i want to be there to give encourangement to my bro hizamy...
Then thinking back i promise myself i'm trying to not show
my face in front of her...so i left...i know when i saw her i do
not have this any feeling....but why i left because she must
feel awkward when i was there....
I think next time i should ignore n pretend that nothing is
happen...yaaaaaay....ya la i should did that but nvrm....
I cant wait to graduate....aku dgr NS dah memanggil aku...
Riduwan Riduwan...mari datang datang...ale2 je bulu rome
aku naek...hahaha...dah2....
I want to watch High School Musical 3....aiyooo...mcm best
gitu...someone....
I really LOVEs this quote from Albiet Einstein...
To let go of someone doesn’t mean you have to STOP loving, It only means that you allow that person to find her own happiness without expecting her to come back.
Yaaaay.....i found it when i go for blog hopping.....
Mcm mane dah aku nk tukar gambar kat blog aku ni....??
Klau korang nk tau gambar kat blog aku ni kwn aku amek
utk aku...time tu kite ngah belajar utk o'lvl then aku suro
la die amek kan aku...dah tu kat background aku buku2 cine
sey....haha....its time for me to change the pic...tapi mcm ane
eh...ngah figure out ni...
Anw aku belajar skill baru...uat dough pizza....name die is
run dough...baru belajar ngan kwn aku "shi fu"...aku rase
i'm comfortable to run dough coz i do better when i use hand...
Klau motor perah motor mane ade art....art die laju je..klau
dough art die mcm2...aku igt kan susah la tapi senang jugak...
I tink i need 1 month to understand it and 3 months to
master it....
Kau tau ape tadi aku pikir bile ngah abes uat proj....??
Nape eh aku tkde wanita yg ku cinta sekarang....?? It seems
no one that can catch my heart....tapi aku pikir balek bile
aku dah jumpe pompan tu aku nk kahwin teros ke??
So uat pe terburu2...relax la deeeey..
Hati itu tidak bole dipakse....Allah yg mengerakkan hati
seseorang insan...so basiclly Allah telah mengerakkan hati
beliau utk tidak sayang ku lagi...Allah lebeh mengetahui
ape yg Die telah siap kan utk aku pada masa hadapan....
Allah tau ape yg aku ingin kan....aku hanya perlu bersabar...
