My madrasah will commence next year. I have completed 1 year of my SPI.
Alhamdulilaah. Without me realising it, a year has past.
I'm still learning arabic languange. I'm not sure if i can continue after
that due to my posting. If i am posted to NPCO or any division which
the working days is 2 days on and 2 days off. Then i will be having a
hard time attending my classes.
I'm 21 years old. A lot of things i do not know.
Friday was an exciting day for me. I spent almost the whole day at my
nenek's house with my cousins. We had lots of fun. And 1 of my cousin
treat us ice cream at Mc Donalds. I'm sure my belly growing healthier each
and everyday. hehehehe.
Sat went to my friend's house teaching. After that went to graduation which
consists of madrasah students and also Teen Alive student. It was an exciting
performance. I enjoy it evethough it took about 1.5hr of travelling. Maybe
i need to buy motorcycle. But i think not now. While going home from
Pasir Ris East CC, i stop at Raffles Mrt. It was great..!! Enjoying the
sceneries there especially the river which makes me emo..hahahaha.
The clouds and the birds chirping. Then there was this couple asked me to
take photograph of them. Romantic sey. They were caucasians.
Today will be another week of booking in. OOO yes i have not buy biscuits.
I need them because i will be hungry at night and i do not want to beg biscuits
from my friends. HAHAHAA.
Anw there is someone who declare herself to be a champion in eating spicy food.
And she want to challenge me eat spicy food. hehehehe. So
maybe i shall try to train myself. If you want to know i loves spicy food.
But sometimes not, because see my mood. But cili padi NO PROBLEM....!!!
BRING IT ON....!!! Just tell me when, where, how much...!! HAHAHAHA...!!
ok i think i need to start buying biscuits. Time is running late.
I'm really touch that my student from the APEX mentees appreciate our mentors
effort and dedication...
To all my mentees....Abg doakan semoga korang berjaya k... :)
I still feel that being at polytecnic was fun...But enough said...Now i need
to move to the next chapter of my life...
Yesterday i told my mum that i miss playing takraw. But i said that i do not
know how to find the time to play with my friends. My mum said to me. All
those things had past. Now look ahead and do not think too much about your
past.
Maybe at this stage of my life i will be finding a new direction. Thinking back
what is best for me. I just feel that 2 years is very very long maaan. Seriously.
I will try my very best to be a better person and not to waste time during my
2 years in NS. 12 weeks had just past. Hopefully my POP will be on Jan. Meaning
its about 6-8 weeks. Ya Allah can i get throught this 2 years?? Why i cannot find
any enjoyment in it?
Anw my mum just said to me yesterday. "Kau gi belajar laa sampai ke tue bile dah
50 tahun aru gi kahwin tau." My mum sinder tu. Who want to marry at the age of
50 sey. Dah tue kerepot. Jodoh itu ditangan Tuhan. Namun kite harus berusaha
dan cari isteri yg baek. Remember wan you are 21 years old.Still long way to
go. But i'm just a normal human being who want to be loved.
Biarlah hati ini merana seorang diri. Kerana tiada seorang pun tahu perasaan ku ketika ini. Aku hanya dapat meminta pada Mu Ilahi. Aku tidak tahu perasaan apakah
ini. Adakah perasaan gembira ataupun duka seperti dihiris belati. Yang inginkan
Syurga Firdausi. Namun layakkah aku insan yang sebegini. Dipenuhi dosa yang amat banyak sekali.
Ok laah. Later need to go back camp. Serve the nation....!!!!
Engkau telah memberi sedikit sinaran cahaya di hati ku walaupun aku
tahu engkau tidak menyedari. Aku harap satu hari aku dapat melihat senyuman
mu lagi.
Ku dapati tangkai bungga mawar itu penuh dengan duri. Ia amat sukar utk memiliki.
Namun kini ku sedari. Siapakah diriku ini. Yang tiada emas utk ditukar ganti.
Ku hanya berdiam diri. Menunggu musim silih berganti.
My goal is....to be able to speak and read in arabic languange in 2 years time.
After that i will learn Chinese language...!! Wohooooo.....can't wait maaan...
Then migrate....haha...migrate to China or Arabic nation...errrrmmmmmm
Ya Allah kabul kan doa ku Ya Allah...
At last i know what is a maxi dress...haha..i thought it is a skirt..ape daah
wan...
So i prefer maxi dress or dress or jeans. For me of course laaa jeans coz i'm
a male. But for female i prefer them to wear maxi dress or dress. Y? First tk ketat,
second nampak keanggunan sebagai wanita yang solehah.
So riduwan....sok pagi dah kene gi balek camp...apekah perasaan kamu? Perasaan
saya pada ketika ini sungguh dan amatlah tidak ade perasaan. Kerana saya masih
belom agi mood NS.
I just cannot wait for next week on 28th nov to hear someone singing...maybe
going to record and video tape....how bout that?? is it a good idea??
But before that i need to focus on my exam first which in this coming sun...
Adakah tali wau ku telah putus?? Kerana wau ku yang terbang bergitu indah.
Aku ingin simpannya sampai bila2. Tetapi itu niat di hati ku sahaja.
Mungkin ini masanya untuk aku lps kan tali wau ku itu yang mungkin telah
terputus?
Mungkin aku harus mencari arah tujuan ku sendiri. Aku harus kuat kan semangat
supaya angan-angan ku in dapat dicapai. Mungkin ade wau yang lebih indah
daripada wau yang aku miliki sekarang.
I'm tired. I'm sleepy. I tried to study for my exam. But it cannot register.
Maybe i should rest first then continue study. I mean not continue but start
studying.
Next week need to go back to camp. Is that a good news?? Errm...
"Perfection is not attainable, but if we chase perfection we can catch exellence"
This quote has been in my head for a few days now. I need to share this
quote to my friends who have difficulties in managing their budget.
"You have to know between want and need"
This quote i think is a very important tool for you to increase your savings.
I give you an example. I really WANT this T-shirt because it has a very nice
cutting and it really fits my body perfectly well.
Another example is. I NEED this T-shirt because i need to wear it when there is
a gathering with friends or family. Futhermore i do not have this T-shirt.
Do you get it. You on your own have to set your own line to distinguish between
NEED and WANT.
Another quote i heard it somewhere. "Its not about having a big salary to become
a millionare but it is how much do you save that money".
Sedih sungguh hati ku ini...Teramatlah sedih...
Just browsing my photos at FB. I miss all my friends. I miss the sweet memories.
I know i have to look ahead. I shall look ahead.
Guys will not forget things or any occasion which is important/special to them.
I just need to Tawakal to Allah. He knows best.
