I still feel that being at polytecnic was fun...But enough said...Now i need
to move to the next chapter of my life...
Yesterday i told my mum that i miss playing takraw. But i said that i do not
know how to find the time to play with my friends. My mum said to me. All
those things had past. Now look ahead and do not think too much about your
past.
Maybe at this stage of my life i will be finding a new direction. Thinking back
what is best for me. I just feel that 2 years is very very long maaan. Seriously.
I will try my very best to be a better person and not to waste time during my
2 years in NS. 12 weeks had just past. Hopefully my POP will be on Jan. Meaning
its about 6-8 weeks. Ya Allah can i get throught this 2 years?? Why i cannot find
any enjoyment in it?
Anw my mum just said to me yesterday. "Kau gi belajar laa sampai ke tue bile dah
50 tahun aru gi kahwin tau." My mum sinder tu. Who want to marry at the age of
50 sey. Dah tue kerepot. Jodoh itu ditangan Tuhan. Namun kite harus berusaha
dan cari isteri yg baek. Remember wan you are 21 years old.Still long way to
go. But i'm just a normal human being who want to be loved.
Biarlah hati ini merana seorang diri. Kerana tiada seorang pun tahu perasaan ku ketika ini. Aku hanya dapat meminta pada Mu Ilahi. Aku tidak tahu perasaan apakah
ini. Adakah perasaan gembira ataupun duka seperti dihiris belati. Yang inginkan
Syurga Firdausi. Namun layakkah aku insan yang sebegini. Dipenuhi dosa yang amat banyak sekali.
Ok laah. Later need to go back camp. Serve the nation....!!!!
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