Aku nk luah kan perasaan tapi tidak tau bagaimana. Aku tenung ni blog dah 3 min cuba ungkapkan kata yg dpt luah kan isi hati ku. Namun tidak dpt ku ungkapkan.
Fikiran ku sekarang lagi berserabut. Hati ku ini tidak tenang. Aku tidak dpt senyum.
Hati ku amat teramat amat sedih. Aku tau byk kekurangan ku. Teramat banyak. Aku ini insan yg teramat lemah. Hanya pada Mu ya Allah dpt ku mengadu sedih ku ini. Aku hanya
dpt berdoa. Sesungguhnya Engkaulah yg menguasai hati2 setiap insan. Aku hanya mampu berusaha dan tawakkal.
Ya Allah sesungguhnya aku ini penuh dgn dosa. Membuat dosa setiap hari. Setiap masa. Setiap detik. Ya Allah. Mampu kah aku melangkah kaki ku ke Syurga Mu. Siapa kah diri ku ini?
Tenang kan lah hati ku dan fikiran ku. Aku tau aku telah melukan kan hati nya. Aku membuat dia tawar hati untuk berkata-kata dgn ku. Oooh Allah tenang kan laaah hati ku ini. Ini adalah dugaan bagi diri ku.
Finally....!! Its been 9 months since my last day of updating this blog...Luckily i can still log in to this blog coz there was a prob earlier on...
Guess what??!! Its been 1 year. 1 year of NS and another 1 year left. About my NS life i learn a lot and now i'm starting to realise that the real world outside is not always kind to us. The world outside is the real world as an adult have to face for most of the Singaporean. The real world outside is what most of the poor country regardless of their age have to face. Lets face it. This is the real world. Equit yourself with certain skills. Skills which will make you a person which knows what is right and what is wrong. In short the person who control is the person who thinks. Is that true?
My age now is 22 years old..alhamdullilaaah...May Allah give me His blessings. Amiiin...
To those who knows me....I wish everyone of you Selamat Hari Raya maaf zahir dan batin sekirannya pernah luka kan hati dengan sengaja atau tidak tolong maaf kan yee. Saya ni adalah insan yg selalu membuat kesilapan.
I just realise that i have not been blogging for about 16 days...
That is quite a long time. I've been busy with exams from police exams
to arabic exam.
Its been 4 months already since i enter NS. Thats fast. I learned a lot
from my 4 months plus in NS.
Now i'm really free. :-) I just can't wait for my posting on 25 Jan. I
want new challenges. hehehe. Challenges that make me a better person.
InsyaAllah.
Challenges is just a challenge. What makes it beneficial is how you handle
it. You take it with positive or with negative mind. You can always learn
something from whatever you do. Its all up to you.
This is one of the most important lesson that i learnt during my 4 months
in NS.
I went to Pulau Ubin with 2 of my squad mate friends. It was fun but
tiring. The most exciting part was the Mountain Cycling. That was
my first time. Hahaha. Plus my rear brake of my bicycle is not that
effective. I still remember when i was going down slope with a lot of
humps here and there i was being caught by a huge rock by suprise.
I panic at that moment and guess what? With that great speed and with
my rear brake is "very very good" i collided with the rock and
i "mini" fly forward. Luckily i landed on my feet and not with my hands
or body or head. OMG. That is the challenge that i want.
Akan ku selami hati mu sedalam-dalamnya. Aku akan cuba memiliki mutiara
hati mu. Aku mencari mutiara itu dengan mata hati ku bukan mata kasar
ku. Namun ku tahu ia memerlukan masa. Akan ku sabar mencarinya dengan
berbekalkan usaha dan tawakkal. InsyaAllah.
This is the time for me to really update my blog..Wahahaha. But the
problem is i really do not know what to blog.Nvrm i try.
Its been 3 months and 10 days since i had been enlisted to NS. I will
POP quite soon about a months plus time. Have i learn something usefull
during my NS life all this while? I do learn. I really learn how to
interact with people more and also some of the small small stuff
that is hard for me to explain.
I starting to feel bored doing nothing at home. I need to keep myself
busy. I really want to play some sports. Ooooh myyyy...i really need
it badly.. anyone play bowling or play soccer or sepaktakraw or
badminton or table tennis or hiking or anything. I just love to do
all this stuff...!! Maybe in my blood. But i'm not sure is it from my
dad? Because when i tell my parents about any sports i played then
my dad will tell me that he did play that sport. And i still remember
when my dad, my younger bro and me play badminton. My dad will not give
any chance to us eventhough we were kid that time.
Guess what i start to love swimming and martial arts. Wohooo. Sume laa
aku sukeeee.
I just feel lonely tonight. Y eh?? errrm.
I'm home....bape best nye kat umaah...together with my family. :)
Last sun i went to fly a kite...!! Great right?? For the first time
i really fly a kite. Mcm ade orang kate. Kau kene uat mcm layang2,
kadang2 kene tarik and kadang2 kene lepas kan. And its true. At
times its best for you to realise the kite away from you and
sometimes its best for you to pull the kite nearer to you. Sorry
la tk sempat nk update coz balek dari maen layang2 je dah kene
book in so tk sempat.
Anw wan doakan die akan selamat pergi ke Malaysia dan selamat
pulang. :) Tak de opputunity to say a proper goodbye. If you read
my blog then i wish you happy enjoying kat sane. Beri salam kat
negara Malaysia bukan awek2 kat Malaysia...hahaha...
What we want does not mean we will get the best from it. Maybe what
we do not like is the best for us. Even if we cannot get the benefits
now but maybe in the future we will get. This does not mean that we
should just sit there and wait. But we must try. Try as hard as
possible. The most difficult things to do is action. Yes action. We
can have a brilliant plan but if we never do any action there is nothing
to that plan. But this does not mean you have just do action without
plan. Understand?
I want to eat Mc Donalds....!!
Should i buy before booking in??
Aku cuba sedaya upaya tidak memikirkan mu. Kerna pabila ku memikir
kan mu hati ku merasa rindu.
What a long day yesterday....wohoooo...!! Tapi beest...coz dah lame tk
go around singapore the whole day...hahaha..
Officially i lost eating pedas...i thought i can handle it...tapi mcm peluh
membasahi muke ku...haha...and tk lupe tissue....!! OMG...
